Monday, January 31, 2005

am tall k..just that they happen to be taller. 
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Sunday, January 30, 2005

went for pre departure seminar today. was a complete waste of my time. and e only good thing was i finally got to see e guy tats studyin in e same uni and same course as me. cos he won some lucky draw and went on stage. couldnt figure out who he was in maths class. and who would have tot a guy called DZUL is actually a chinese. damn. all e effort trying to figure out which malay in my maths lecture actually LOOKED like a DZUL(pronounced as zoo btw.) but he disappeared once e lucky draw was over. oh well. not fated. at least now i noe how he look like.

reminder. wake up for church.wake up for church.wake up for church.wake up for church.wake up for church.wake up for church.wake up for church.wake up for church.wake up for church.wake up for church.wake up for church.wake up for church.wake up for church.wake up for church.wake up for church.wake up for church.wake up for church.wake up for church.wake up for church.wake up for church.wake up for church.wake up for church.wake up for church.

hopefully this will help.

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Saturday, January 29, 2005

of tealight and beer. 
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kim n df 
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e half sober y leong. 
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farewell with y leong? df and hakim. coffee bean. coffe shop. chicken chop. walawala with a queue tat was way too long. and after much debate abt where to go in e middle of holland v, and me wearing berms, we ended up at bar celona in ms. shall post e pics up in a while. and e lameness of df have definitely improved. tats a compliment btw ;)

was driving home at 2 in e morning after downing a glass of heineken and saw this nissan sunny coming to a abrupt stop next to me at e traffic light. wanting to see if it was driven by some ah beng..i decided to move up a bit and before i know e lights turned green and e nissan sunny was zooming away like it was a ferrari. and e events that were to unfold definitely lighten up my half shut eyes. two TPs zoom up behind me and was on e way to chase e darn nissan. woohoo. my first ever police chase scene in spore. and believe me e nissan was going through e traffic like nobody business. wad a scene tat was. to end it off i saw e driver hand cuffed by e side of e road near my place and yeah..it was a ah beng. hehehe. moral of e story is that traffic police are actually doing their job...providing some form of entertainment for me driving home at 2 in e morning...

departure seminar in 7 hours time....

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Friday, January 28, 2005

its funny how long.....or rather how short i can be pissed at one person. now i know my weakness. wonder if its a good thing.

last maths class tomoroe. yipee. but i still demand my money back.

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Thursday, January 27, 2005

alrite. clement. to proof that am not gone from e 3/4 jug of long island at cocoa latte...ive decided to type this post. see am not. am still able to type. although there are lots of typo along e way. which of cos i have already edited along e way=)

now we noe wad kind of students there are at unsw. hehz. being persuaded by clement to go down with him to cocoa latte probly wasnt e worse thing that happened. e crowd there was. it was almost empty at tt place..at least at e first level. and meng got to order e jug of long island which he only drank 2 cups from..... it was pretty obvious it was a unsw bash. with all e guys engineering students there hehz. wld have mistaken it to be gay night if not for wed. and e best thing tt happen was e onion egg prata tt followed for supper.

think am typing nonsense. hmmm. but still am able to type at least 2 paragraph at 2.43 in e morning. this shows tt am sober. alrite lets hope man u wins tonight.

ok..maybe am not really sober..lets hope chelsea wins tonight.

am typing gibberish rubbishy stuff...weird. my QUEEN sized bed...here i come...

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Wednesday, January 26, 2005

e darn engineering maths bridging lessons is really getting out of hand. first he talks nonsense. second he tries to confuse us. third he confuses himself. and now. his teaching elec. engineering stuff. i demand my money back!

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Monday, January 24, 2005

or rather e lack of it. wadever team i put my money on er never make me win. even though arse-nal won today they were short of e darn 2 goal i was after. damnit. i give up.

soccer yesterday was crappy and fun at e same time. been along time since i have been playing with bags as goal posts. and of course meeting up with yong chuan at e game was good. whole body's aching. arms from bowling. legs from soccer. er body from...sleeping too much. ;) think i suffered heat exhaustion after e game. those guys are nuts. in e hot sun for more than 2 hours chasing after e damn ball non-stop. and now am down with e flu. hmmm..think i need more sleep. hahahhaha. shall extend it from 10 hrs a day to 12...that will cure me...

am actually excited abt flying over..wonder what got into me. must be losing too much to singapore pools....

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Saturday, January 22, 2005

mr siak with his pro bowler pose... 
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tts for losing a bowling game;) 
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and then there was 4... 
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e 3 stooges without kes... 
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had a bang with my ocs mates fpr my supposedly farewell dinner. although dinner was pretty turn off... tian tian steamboat is not as good as they seems to be. its damn ex...comes round to 26 bucks each. could have ate like swensens or something. and e soup its not tt great either. but e company was great. e 4 of us. e 4 stooges. as usual we were talking abt our time back in brunei..and it sure brought back lots of larffters..and cramps on e cheeks. gonna miss these guys...oh and may i add kesmond's speed at vertical parking is probly e slowest in e world. hehz. going at most 0.01km/h reversing as slowly as he could into e huge parking lot. oh well..guess tts why his a wso fighter.

headed down to marina south for bowling..and it was probly e best time of e nite after e lousy dinner. bowled for push ups...hahhaa..doing it right there on e spot. a bit dumb...but well its all for fun sake. and then there was this long time missed daytona!! woohoo....arcade and boys..just seem to go well together. dun noe how to get e pic in between this blog..cant be bothered to learn anyway..so shall just post it up after this one by one...oh and there was this cat who ate almost anything from our steamboat...fish..chicken..pork liver..bah kut..less e mushrooms which he/she refuses to even go near.

time for bed...hopefully mag wins tmr..and e weather will be fine for a good game of soccer. cant wait.

*oh ive also come to realise that there isnt a ATM machine in e whole of marina south...better draw cash before u r there...






stay humble. stay true. to yourself. to God.

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Friday, January 21, 2005

see e concentration tts on their face..wad winning 11 does to humans.. 
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tts how e new maths lecturer pronounces acceleration. yes e ah-gua one is gone. finished teaching his topic. and now comes this lecturer who totally believes in 'if you cant convince them..confuse them..and at e same time confuse myself' theory. he not only confuses us..he also confuses himself in e process. i wun dare admit i paid 100% attention..blame it on e spoilt aircon..but how can x = to e gradient..... and he kept yakking on abt y = mx + c..... wads m to him then? ..... and he is even better then e ah gua one. he goes on abt a topic and then go..its ok if u are confused go back and practise and u will noe. for like almost all e topic he teaches on its always..any questions? its ok if u dun noe..go back and practise. in one breath. every *#!@ shit also go back and practise i come for wad? realised it was a better thing to do reading thru e notes on my own. think i complain too much abt e lecturers..maybe its not them..but then it cant be me...hmmm must be e darn aircons which are not working. how can a class of 114 survive on 2 bloody wall fans.

every now and then..theres this small little red dot crawling around my laptop. i wonder where they come from. if i ever find ur base camp am so gonna kill all of u. i hate ants. period.

*come to think of it..i actually miss e ah guaish lecturer..think he teaches better..







stay humble. stay true. to yourself. to God.


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pei chun..e pri sch tt looked more like a clubhouse.. 
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Thursday, January 20, 2005

my pri sch actually got a door bitch. but e bouncer was no where in sight. pri sch these days. security's tighter than trying to sneak into zouk. end up e furthest we went was probly e new canteen. which was at most 20 steps from e main gate. how sad. old students not being able to visit their sch when they want to. but oh well was nice having lunch with e 3 idiots. and we also came to realised how much e surroundings have changed. e play ground we used to hang out at before higher chinese classes is now a multi-storey carpark. or as they put on e sign boards nowadays..MSCP. wanted to sneak into e old pri sch but then again too prominent with it located right by e roadside. oh and did i mention abt e door bitch and e bouncer...

spent e rest of e afternn playing winning eleving at sijie's place. darn. whole bloody afternn and i still can beat him. damn. kes called me to meet up with ocs mates for my farewell...sigh. how thoughtful of them...drop tear. and it also goes to show how soon am flying. hopefully meet up with dian daryl and hakim tmr. better sleep or i will be sleeping in class again.

oh and american idol is turning into a comedy. its so hilarious. or has it always been a comedy?






stay humble. stay true. to yourself. to God.

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Tuesday, January 18, 2005

work. lunch. borders. more calvin and hobbes. potblack. stupid maths bridging lessons.

thats my day. couldnt resist e temptation to get another calvin and hobbes book at borders with e discount. darn. so now i have 3 in all. woohoo. and jansen i swear am never gonna work with u part time again. everytime we do...before e end of e day..our pay is gone. hehz. first time was nooch. and today was potblack. but oh well its good billards n pool.

totally lost e fight against e monsters in class today. i fell asleep for like erm 2 mins? and woke up with a shock not knowing where on earth i was. darn i miss those feelings hahhaa used to have them every now and then in poly lectures. e only difference was that i was probly asleep for an hour then...and with a working air con. e ah gua lecturer kept yakking on and on and on. and everytime he asks..any question*?? before anyone can even raise his/her pinky..his on e next topic. got this feeling his avoiding us asking cos he dun really noe wad he was yakking abt. either that or he thinks we are all damn smart. i could have taught e lecture, with him literally speaking out from e notes. okok. i shall give him some credits..having studied 4yrs in maths. he does noes some stuff. definitely much more than me.

off to meet ah zhou. my good old friend and play some dum with him. am not very good at chinese chess. zhou gong here i come...


*in e ah gua-ish tone...





stay humble. stay true. to yourself. to God.

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view from my lousy seat... 
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am itching to jam. been like forever since i last went. and going over to jason's place doesnt count. half the time we were worrying if e neighbours will throw some eggs at his windows for e amount of noise pollution we were contributing. miss those days when theres nothing to do and will just head dwn to e second hand smoke filled studio at serangoon. hopefully can jam once before i fly. and josh gets its attach out. room's in a mess now. not that its ever neat. adding to it is e wires all over e place. well..one day its gonna be neat..and empty. dreading. where all my stuff will be in my luggage.

e photo i took of e national stadium turned out pretty well. considering e fact that it was taken from a VGA phone and how far away i was sitting. probly e last time am gonna pic in there with them tearing it down soon.

better force myself to sleep..otherwise am gonna be late tomoroe. am starting to dread going to e darn maths bridging lessons. they seem to be killing all my brain cells. not that i have a lot left after e 2 yrs of brain cells evaporating in e army. damnit. 180 bucks.







stay humble. stay true. to yourself. to God.


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Sunday, January 16, 2005

in liverpool that is. for e very last time. i donated another 5 bucks to singapore pool. darn. and they say that if u keeping believing they will return u in kind. wth. everytime when its pool against man u my brain tells me to bet on man u..or more affectionally known to me as manure. but that heart of mine kept telling me to place it on e team i support. another 5 bucks down e drain. plus e snapple i drank and e onion rings i ate while watching with yf, clement and josh. and plus e petrol. damnit. am never ever gonna bet on them again. wonder who i should place on for tmr spore - indo game. oh did i say it was e last time am gonna bet?

*woke up damn early this morning to send mag to sp for competition..and i was stoning and staring at my bed. and it just hit me. why does anyone pack e bed knowing that in less than 20hrs later its gonna be in e same state again?

going back to larffing at calvin and hobbes...






stay humble. stay true. to yourself. to God.


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Friday, January 14, 2005

m.a.t.h.s

been attending e engineering maths bridging course offered by idp. and after payin 180 bucks for it i have decided to make e full 180 bucks of it. i realised how much i have forgotten in this 2 yrs of serving e nation. and also how quick it is to recall after a while. but of these all...e best thing abt this lessons or lectures rather...is the fact that it never fails to give me cranking headaches by e second hour of e 3 hrs sessions. as much as i wanna absorb all that e ah gua sounding lecturer is yakking abt..i find myself stoning abit after a while. think my brain is still being warmed up after 2 yrs of parking mode.

its good to have this sessions to give my brain a bit of head start before flying over. and also e study sessions with clement was good as well. been a long time since i sat down to do some brain intriguing stuff. planning for field camps, sit tests, range doesnt count. and also a long time that i have held a pen in my hand for 3 hrs straight. miss those poly days of sitting in lectures and tutorials. guess they are slowly coming back. find myself absorbing slower than e rest...or is it that e lecturer is yakking on too fast and everyone else is pretending to understand before they actually do. doesnt matter as long as end of e day i noe wads going on. lucky to have clement and yan ming to be in e class as well. having to other brain is better than mine alone. and 2 smarter brains as that. cos i realise am always e one asking them.

f.r.i.e.n.d.s

used to go to this channel in irc long time ago. probly like 5 yrs ago. ha. but it still is my fav comedy. used to imagine living like them. and i always like to imagine being joey. hahah his crappiness is unbeatable. and if i was a girl i wld definitely be phoebe. other than her out of e world replies...also comes e smelly cat song. ;) but i come to realise that this kind of life is almost impossible. to be able to find 6 ppl who you can get along so well with. and staying together. is an almost unachievable feat. less to say e number of true friends one will ever have in their life.

friends are not all e people u have in your phonebooks. or u meet up some time on e streets and say hi bye to. all these are probly just aquaintances. even someone you meet everyday be it to work or to school or to play isnt really your friend. he or she is still just an aquaintance. think it is a overly used word. true friends are hard to come by. someone who dun always have to be there. but you noe you can depend on when u need him or her to be there. someone who knows what you are going to do next. someone who wun shun away from you just because of something you did. but to stand by you. someone who is not just there for e moment. someone who is willing to sacrifice for you. to do that extra bit for you to go that extra mile for you. to stand for you. and think not for himself. to help when you really need. think you all get what i mean. that is what i call a true friend. some may call it best friend. but whatever it is who can ever boast that all e names and contacts they have in their phonebook can do all this.

no doubt those aquaintance are also important part of one's life. cos more often than not you find yourself going out with them and doing stuff together. it is when you are in deep shit..you will see the true colours of them. will they forsake you or will they be there for you. i myself for one dare say i have a lot of aquaintances. sometimes to e extend that when they call me or talk to me on e streets i dun even have any idea who they are. but i still carry on e conversation. yeap its fake, i noe. but there are definitely someone who has always been there for you thru this life.

am proud to say for fact that i still have 2 friends from pri sch whom i still keep close contacts with after all these yrs of going seperate ways. imagine from pri 5 pre-puberty till now RA approved. what a long way we've come. one is lim sijie. who has just returned me my money. thanks again. really needed it man.. all those time when u were in tchs u never fail to intro me nice nygh gers and keep all those super nice ones to yourself. thanks ah. still rem e times in pri sch where we used to talked cock on e phone forever. and lending me your workbook to copy. and e chicken rice..or rather e amount of chicken we have both ate. its just amazing how we can not meet but when we do..usually over half a roasted dead chicken we still can talk like anything and everything. though usually is about u and ur gers. and the other is quek weiquan jansen. this i got to thank personally for helping me cover e last position in class when am not there to in pri sch. and of cos we take turns to do that. tts what friends are for ya. covering each other's ass. and e walk home and e rubber duck. and to your vs days...and e gers...hmmm why issit always gers... ya e gers u introed e chalets u held. and always being e chin chye one agreeing to most everything. and as u wrote in your blog....fighting over the DAMN number 11 jersey. just being able to crash at your house or rather your room and doing nothing. and now ending up in e same uni. guess thats where e 44 and 45 positions in class goes to eh. u jolly well make sure u name ur daughter chloe next time. and we shall see whose daughter will crawl faster when we call out e name hahaha. i take this chance to thank you 2 idiots. for this 13 yrs of friendship.

and also e friends tt are still with me somehow..from sa. not that i have many. from army. from poly. hmm. funny isnt it. e friends i am closest to seems to be e ones i made when i was younger.
friends are those whom i know i can depend on when i need advices and help. and not step on me even more when am already down. and who are willing to listen to all my crapping and complains.

z.o.u.k

went to my supposedly last clubbing session at zouk yesterday. lets see how it will go from now till i fly hahaha. company of y leong? jaysen and mark. and clement josh and his gf came later. y leong? and jaysen was talking abt my trip over. why am i being so pessimistic and stuff. and giving me advices and er encouragment? i dunno. wadever it is i thank you guys for that. really appreciate it. really.

and as usual spider hair y leong? went about his usual routine there even though he claims he has retired. i shall not say wad his usual routine is. and mark got erm lets just say lucky. hehe. and i was just enjoying e fact to be able to club with this guys one last time before i fly. too bad df, hakim, daryl and ah singh cant make it. and first time clubbing with clement and josh. though din really see josh there much hahaa but got to drink quite a bit of his 48bucks one for one. woohoo. was quite a usual session larffing my heads off at y leong? doing his thing..and also an entertaining one looking at mark with tweety bird. hehehe. wad a way to end of my last clubbing session(supposedly) before i fly.

p/s in addition to this...jaysen i want your hair!!!! e colour that is. and y leong? your hair is damn happening...with e spiders lying upside down doing flutter kicks hehehe...

this is probly by far e longest entry i have. hmmmz...wonder wad just gotten into me?

footnote: i have decided in this life i can never work as 2 things. 1. a bank loan officer. and 2. a loanshark. cause i always seems to have a problem of being to softhearted to lend and too softhearted to demand for it back. and for now at least, after all e bad expriences i had..i have decided not to lend anyone money. try looking for y leong? heard he is pretty rich from rearing spiders on his head.;p


thank you lord for everything you have given me. for all your blessings and showerings of love. i thank you. and i pray that you will watch over us all through our days.






stay humble. stay true. to yourself. to God.

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Tuesday, January 11, 2005

Your Dominant Intelligence is Spatial Intelligence

http://www.quizdiva.net/bt/spatial.jpg">>You' best. You would make a good navigator, sculptor, visual artist, inventor, architect, interior designer, or engineer.

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Monday, January 10, 2005

am gonna miss...(or at least i think am gonna miss)

> my parents(most importantly)
> my queen size bed
> driving my civic
> my friends
> my ps1 which i seldom touch
> my 2 other guitars + amp
> my mum's world number 1's cooking
> kicking e stupid star wars rubber ball around house
> being able to just pick up e phone and call my parents anytime
> taking e lift up to e 9th level
> opening my door
> clubbing with my clubbing pals
> supper with kakis
> lunch with dad
> dinner with parents
> playing soccer
> taking e mrt?
> definitely not taking e bus though
> mahjong sessions with kakis
> watching unlimited soccer on scv
> watching i guess, tian cai go go go, shi zhi lou kou
> channel 8 serials
> mtvs unless they have them over there
> bahkut teh
> char kuay teow
> fried hokkien prawn mee
> duck rice
> far east chicken rice
> ok..chicken rice in general
> those frozen fried chicken
> do re mi western food
> bah chor mee
> watching american idol
> teh peng...darn i cant live without this...
> milo peng...i cant live without this either...
> my bolsters
> my aunties and uncles and cousins and nephew...oh think they are called relatives..
> picking mum up from work
> sending mum to work
> playing canoe polo(not that i play it much anyway)
> drinking sessions with a group of close friends
> crapping and just talking abt bascically nothing with friends
> hearing more crap from dianfang..even though sometimes they make sense
> zouking with whyeleong and ah singh
> and talking nonsense with whyeleong
> crapping and talking nonsense with my parents
> hanging out with ben, vin, dewei, jack..and e rest of nacc guys
> drinking with ivan
> chicken rice with sijie
> tennis at josh's place
> mahjong at yf's and leo's house
> pool and snooker at potblack

darn this is getting long...shall update as i think of more....
good thing is that i wun have to miss mag...cos she will be there..=)



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Friday, January 07, 2005

a thousand what ifs is going through my mind right down. which probably explains the depression am sufferin at the moment. now i can totally understand those recruits who come to me suffering from depression and i always think that they are malingering...

what if...
when am gone and mum's alone at home and she falls ill? whos gonna take care of her?
what if...
when am gone and dad wakes up and have no one to go lunch with?
what if...
when am gone and my parents were to argue? whos gonna break them up?
what if...
when am gone and my mum needs help to shift stuff?
what if...
when am gone and my dad needs help in understanding those letters that comes to him all in english?
what if...
the door bell's not working again? whos gonna go up there to change e batteries?
what if...
i go over there and i can catch up with my studies?
what if...
i got over there and cant find a suitable accoms?
what if...
i found myself not liking the place am studying in?
what if...
i go over there and realise that i cant adapt to the new envrionment?

i think i think too much. i really do. maybe am a pessimist. but i have always known myself as an optimist. why am i thinking so much? and honestly being a only child doesnt help at all. ive got no one to rely on to look after my parents. the closest i can find are probably jason and aunt jess. who arent exactly e most free people around. i guess my parents do not need ppl looking after them afterall. believe me. this may sound absurd to some of you. it is always e kids worry on our parents. or maybe it only applies to e only childs out there. or maybe it only applies to me.

having many sleepless nights nowadays. cant bring myself to sleep knowing that by the time i wake up...its another day. i HATE that feeling. i DREAD that feeling. knowing that its one day less. and its one day nearer to flying off. or maybe if you are a super optimistic person...i am one day nearer to coming back in nov.

now am being reminded of a U2 song. all that you can't leave behind. sighz. i really cant. i dun get it.everyone is like saying am so lucky can go overseas and study...am i really lucky? arent YOU luckier getting a place in local uni...and being able to call and meet your family friends love ones anytime you want? its always easier to say. when u are not in e position. ppl going around yakking..its a good experience...and all e freedom...bah. i will exchange it with you right now. you give me your local space and i will exchange it with you.

maybe am just plain stupid.

stupid not to be able to make it to local uni. but how can it be when someone with a lower avg and lower SAT score than me make it in? i dun get it. but i get the point theres no point crying over spilt milk. unless of course u get one of those OSIM vacuum suckers to suck it all up and drink from it.

why am i feeling so miserable? maybe am just making myself feel miserable. just be hairpee and look foward to flying...on e plane..living alone..studying..no ones gonna pester you on your whereabout, what time u be back.... but I CAN'T. to all my friends out there who actually read this, which is less than e number of fingers i have on my right hand, and yes i have a normal right hand with 5 fingers, please treasure them and never never take them for granted. not your fingers doh. your parents.

sleepless nights. actually had no feeling on typing this blog at all. no mood to do ANYTHING actually. just felt like this is probably a channel for me to express it out and not keep it inside. was bathing. yes bathing. and thinking. and yes my brain is still working and thinking. at least am not like you bathing and singing. was thinking. on who to write to before i fly. definitely my parents. and perhaps my mums boss who is like my sponsor for my studies. and prob e closest cousin and my aunt. hey did i just typed all this up there in e first paragraph? a bit of deja vu just set in.

every meal i have with my parents now is so damn precious. just the 3 of us. cos i noe that it will be another 11 mths time before i can have it again. maybe am too sticky. maybe am too immature. maybe i depend on them too much. maybe am too spoilt.

whatever. i dun care. i only got 33 days left before flying. gonna treasure every moment with my parents.

i hate the nights. it means another day is gone. it means its silent. it means theres no good show on tv. it means i think. and i think. and i think. and i think. and i think. and i think. i dun wanna sleep....for it means another day gone when i wake up....

god bless all you out there...and maybe god be with you thru your days...


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Wednesday, January 05, 2005

Tan has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. He lets new people into his circle of friends. He uses his imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

Tan is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect his ego when he feels hurt. He pokes people harder than he gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Tan is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. He needs to visualize the end of a project before he starts. he finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said he plans everything he is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Tan basically feels good about himself. He has a positive self-esteem which contributes to his success. He feels he has the ability to achieve anything he sets his mind to. However, he sets his goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". He has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, he will not take great risks, as they relate to his goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, his self-perception is better than average.

In reference to Tan's mental abilities, he has a very investigating and creating mind. He investigates projects rapidly because he is curious about many things. He gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but he soon must slow down and look at all the angles. He probably gets too many things going at once. When Tan slows down, then he becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, he must slow down to do it. He then decides what projects he has time to finish. Thus he finishes at a slower pace than when he started the project. He has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. His mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. He can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Tan can then switch into his low gear. When he is in the slower mode, he can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. He is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.
Tan will be candid and direct when expressing his opinion. He will tell them what he thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want his opinion, don't ask for it!

Tan will demand respect and will expect others to treat him with honor and dignity. Tan believes in his ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. He has a lot of pride.
Tan is moderately outgoing. His emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, he can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. He has the ability to put himself into the other person's shoes. Tan will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes he will be happy, the next day he might be sad. He has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because he is in between. Psychology calls Tan an ambivert. He understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, he will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." He doesn't sway too far one way or the other. When convincing him to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to him. He puts himself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet he will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Tan is an expressive person. He outwardly shows his emotions. He may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story. Tan is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. He weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when he finally has to. He basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Tan doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

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Saturday, January 01, 2005

oh ya...the gers... 
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mag and moi...in semi high state;) 
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everyone!!! 
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the guys... 
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dear lord...i wonder if you ever read my blog...i believe u do..and i know that u hear my prayers from whereever they come from..be it from my heart..my mouth..my mind..my song..or even my blog...and lord i pray...

for all those families, friends, relatives and people affected by e recent tsunami and earthquake, that u will bring comfort to those who lost their love ones..bring healing to those injured..bring health to those recovering..bring love to those grieving..bring strength to those volunteers..bring shelter to those homeless. be with them dear lord..hold them ever close to you, let them feel you..feel of your presence by their side..of your love and strength. guide them thru dear lord..thru this time and deliver them father. grant them perserverance to go thru this difficult time. and may those who are seeking shalt find...hear their prayers dear lord..i know you do..let them not give up hope..for u bring hope father...be with them always...always..thru this time. let them know...and let them see of your everlasting love..grace..and power. i pray that u will bring healing to all and may peace be upon us all. guide us dear lord..guide them who are search..lead them..to where you want them to go.....be with us all.

in Jesus most precious name,
Amen.

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hairpee new year.... a sad way to start the year... with the tsunami and all. nonetheless we still met up at dennis' place for food, cards, dvds and mahjong. oh and of course. jack daniels as well. ;p had pizza and kfc...and after which was a 2 hrs special edition of fear factor. luckily we all ate before watching...imagine eating a yummy 2-4-1 hawaiian with cheese toppings...and watching this ang mo on tv eating fermanted cheese with maggots crawling all over.

we then headed down to chevron's for bowling...but ended up doing nothing cos it was all full..but e place was pretty cool with e cosmic bowling thing going on. after waiting and waiting we decided to head back...to start our favourite must have game..indian poker. hehez....and we had a bit of 7 up and 007 as well..hmm why are all these drinking game related to e number 7....
had a hard time trying to open up benson's dfs hundred over buck ICE WINE. imagine a scene where 5 ppl try opening a wine cock...but e wine tasted real good...not that i know how to appreciate wine much..but it tasted pretty smooth..end of the day i still think burbon's e best. hehhehz.

was suppose to play mahjong...yeah...WAS..SUPPOSED TO...but everyone got cranky from alcohol influence other than mag and jack who din drink. and before u noe it..ah neh was puking...benson was erm...pracitising his thousand buddha palms...and i was a professional photographer. hahahhaha. think we all zonked out ard 4.....had no idea at all.

had a good time going into the new year with these friends who had always been there..since yr1 till we graduated..and me finishing army..all e pool games...e polo competition..e gym..e running..e crazy trainings 4 times a week..those were e days...and it was good to know that after all these yrs we are still together...although definitely not as close as before..but still being able to have a crazy time after all.

have a blessed year ahead.

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