stood in for a meeting this afternoon. hate meetings. never liked them. always felt that its really meeting for the sake of meeting. somehow the 'up there' always seems to call the shots and decisions. isnt a meeting suppose to be for ppl to give their points and opinion? whats the point of it if ppl just dun wanna speak or when they speak they just get bang back straight in the face. how ironic. or maybe this is how the world goes about. tot i will be lowest ranked there luckily saw marx and erwin. felt more comfortable. cant believe it. talk crap also can go on for hours. was there for like 180 minutes. 180 torturing minutes. luckily he came and i could go. and believe it it went on for another 60 minutes. just what were they talking about. got absoulutely no idea even after 180 minutes. its like 2 football matches went by and got no idea what they were yakking about. beating about the bushes they call it. no reply from ntu yet. no news is good news they say. dad's been pestering me again. sigh. when i was young all we wanted to was to play and have fun. studies was probably one of the last thing on my mind. now? ha. dying to study. how funny. the older you get the more you will know how to think. the more you think the more you worry. the more you worry the more stress you get. wouldnt it be good to stay young... stay humble. stay true. to yourself. to God. desmond scribbled at 8:57 PM. | praying hard that i would get a positive reply from ntu. somehow on the surface seems that i dont care much about leaving. who wouldnt want to stay and study locally surrounded by the comfort of love ones. if only it was up to me. dad keep asking me to check the net if the results are out. sigh. getting a bit on my nerves. i know his concern about it. so am i. day in day out been always on my mind. guess there are actually only four main things occupying my mind these days. uni. work. family. mag. somehow am always forgetting stuff. think something is really wrong with my brain. or maybe its just me. getting old too fast for my age. maybe its some brain clog thing. or maybe its the migrains. or maybe there are just too many stuff for me to remember. pentium 4 era and am still running on 486. gotta get some memory pills. seven more days before jan flys off. gonna organise some makan session. wonder how he feels about flying there. this blog thing isnt suppose to be some stuff that i post on the web for everyone to see. just my feelings so that someday i can just sit back and look back on my online diary. that is if the internet is still around. my palm is actually still alive. thank to mag. if not would have to go the trouble to send it to ICU at ck tang. hafent even send in its warranty. parade tomorrow. somehow the mindset these days for work is come what may. three more months and i will wash my hands off. for now, got to get back on the stupid ferry once more onto the island. stay humble. stay true. to yourself. to God. desmond scribbled at 10:04 PM. | jan's leaving soon...one less kaki of the few that are left. true friends these days are really hard to find..you wouldnt know if its true till youve been through good and bad days together.. sigh. realised that people in this world are actually pretty superficial, putting on a facade. myself included. working for the good of oneself and not for the whole. whats wrong these days. whats with gossiping.. back stabbing.. what good can one benefit from it.is it out of fear or position?i wonder. was talking to william, if only everyone could just be agreeable. but then again if everyone would be like that guess we wouldnt know wads happy, sad. right, wrong. guess hes got a point. people see others as wad they perceive others to be. for all we know that might not be his/her true self. a very interesting point which i gathered. the info we receive from another person is always a third hand information. what we feel might not necessary be what we say. what we hear might not be what others said. how true. got rejection from nus again. fated. awaiting for ntu. really appreciate all the effort that my parents and mag went through for my uni stuff. hafent given up hope yet. cause i believe. believe in Him. believe He hears. and He answers. even if i dun get in it doesnt really matter, cause i believe that He has it all planned out. Lead and i will follow thee. who knows might just join jan at RMIT. who knows. beginning to see life more. with the different kind of people in this world. different attitude, workstyle, lifestyle. beginning to regret saying how i wish to grow up fast, when i was a kid. at the same time appreciating more for what ive got. the people around me. my parents. maggot.friends i grew up with since pri sch. rem my dad saying true friends are those u made when in pri sch and whom stay through your life. how true. growing up too fast. too soon. like mag says cant be protected all your life and be dependent on your parents. one seldom appreciate what they have till theyve lost it. is learned something from mag this week. it takes guts to say the simplest sorry. sorry always seems to be the hardest word.is it the ego or wad. i said it anyway. and it really felt much better.no matter how the other party receives it. at least i knew i took e guts to do it. stay humble. stay true. to yourself. to God. desmond scribbled at 1:08 PM. | |
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