Friday, January 14, 2005

m.a.t.h.s

been attending e engineering maths bridging course offered by idp. and after payin 180 bucks for it i have decided to make e full 180 bucks of it. i realised how much i have forgotten in this 2 yrs of serving e nation. and also how quick it is to recall after a while. but of these all...e best thing abt this lessons or lectures rather...is the fact that it never fails to give me cranking headaches by e second hour of e 3 hrs sessions. as much as i wanna absorb all that e ah gua sounding lecturer is yakking abt..i find myself stoning abit after a while. think my brain is still being warmed up after 2 yrs of parking mode.

its good to have this sessions to give my brain a bit of head start before flying over. and also e study sessions with clement was good as well. been a long time since i sat down to do some brain intriguing stuff. planning for field camps, sit tests, range doesnt count. and also a long time that i have held a pen in my hand for 3 hrs straight. miss those poly days of sitting in lectures and tutorials. guess they are slowly coming back. find myself absorbing slower than e rest...or is it that e lecturer is yakking on too fast and everyone else is pretending to understand before they actually do. doesnt matter as long as end of e day i noe wads going on. lucky to have clement and yan ming to be in e class as well. having to other brain is better than mine alone. and 2 smarter brains as that. cos i realise am always e one asking them.

f.r.i.e.n.d.s

used to go to this channel in irc long time ago. probly like 5 yrs ago. ha. but it still is my fav comedy. used to imagine living like them. and i always like to imagine being joey. hahah his crappiness is unbeatable. and if i was a girl i wld definitely be phoebe. other than her out of e world replies...also comes e smelly cat song. ;) but i come to realise that this kind of life is almost impossible. to be able to find 6 ppl who you can get along so well with. and staying together. is an almost unachievable feat. less to say e number of true friends one will ever have in their life.

friends are not all e people u have in your phonebooks. or u meet up some time on e streets and say hi bye to. all these are probly just aquaintances. even someone you meet everyday be it to work or to school or to play isnt really your friend. he or she is still just an aquaintance. think it is a overly used word. true friends are hard to come by. someone who dun always have to be there. but you noe you can depend on when u need him or her to be there. someone who knows what you are going to do next. someone who wun shun away from you just because of something you did. but to stand by you. someone who is not just there for e moment. someone who is willing to sacrifice for you. to do that extra bit for you to go that extra mile for you. to stand for you. and think not for himself. to help when you really need. think you all get what i mean. that is what i call a true friend. some may call it best friend. but whatever it is who can ever boast that all e names and contacts they have in their phonebook can do all this.

no doubt those aquaintance are also important part of one's life. cos more often than not you find yourself going out with them and doing stuff together. it is when you are in deep shit..you will see the true colours of them. will they forsake you or will they be there for you. i myself for one dare say i have a lot of aquaintances. sometimes to e extend that when they call me or talk to me on e streets i dun even have any idea who they are. but i still carry on e conversation. yeap its fake, i noe. but there are definitely someone who has always been there for you thru this life.

am proud to say for fact that i still have 2 friends from pri sch whom i still keep close contacts with after all these yrs of going seperate ways. imagine from pri 5 pre-puberty till now RA approved. what a long way we've come. one is lim sijie. who has just returned me my money. thanks again. really needed it man.. all those time when u were in tchs u never fail to intro me nice nygh gers and keep all those super nice ones to yourself. thanks ah. still rem e times in pri sch where we used to talked cock on e phone forever. and lending me your workbook to copy. and e chicken rice..or rather e amount of chicken we have both ate. its just amazing how we can not meet but when we do..usually over half a roasted dead chicken we still can talk like anything and everything. though usually is about u and ur gers. and the other is quek weiquan jansen. this i got to thank personally for helping me cover e last position in class when am not there to in pri sch. and of cos we take turns to do that. tts what friends are for ya. covering each other's ass. and e walk home and e rubber duck. and to your vs days...and e gers...hmmm why issit always gers... ya e gers u introed e chalets u held. and always being e chin chye one agreeing to most everything. and as u wrote in your blog....fighting over the DAMN number 11 jersey. just being able to crash at your house or rather your room and doing nothing. and now ending up in e same uni. guess thats where e 44 and 45 positions in class goes to eh. u jolly well make sure u name ur daughter chloe next time. and we shall see whose daughter will crawl faster when we call out e name hahaha. i take this chance to thank you 2 idiots. for this 13 yrs of friendship.

and also e friends tt are still with me somehow..from sa. not that i have many. from army. from poly. hmm. funny isnt it. e friends i am closest to seems to be e ones i made when i was younger.
friends are those whom i know i can depend on when i need advices and help. and not step on me even more when am already down. and who are willing to listen to all my crapping and complains.

z.o.u.k

went to my supposedly last clubbing session at zouk yesterday. lets see how it will go from now till i fly hahaha. company of y leong? jaysen and mark. and clement josh and his gf came later. y leong? and jaysen was talking abt my trip over. why am i being so pessimistic and stuff. and giving me advices and er encouragment? i dunno. wadever it is i thank you guys for that. really appreciate it. really.

and as usual spider hair y leong? went about his usual routine there even though he claims he has retired. i shall not say wad his usual routine is. and mark got erm lets just say lucky. hehe. and i was just enjoying e fact to be able to club with this guys one last time before i fly. too bad df, hakim, daryl and ah singh cant make it. and first time clubbing with clement and josh. though din really see josh there much hahaa but got to drink quite a bit of his 48bucks one for one. woohoo. was quite a usual session larffing my heads off at y leong? doing his thing..and also an entertaining one looking at mark with tweety bird. hehehe. wad a way to end of my last clubbing session(supposedly) before i fly.

p/s in addition to this...jaysen i want your hair!!!! e colour that is. and y leong? your hair is damn happening...with e spiders lying upside down doing flutter kicks hehehe...

this is probly by far e longest entry i have. hmmmz...wonder wad just gotten into me?

footnote: i have decided in this life i can never work as 2 things. 1. a bank loan officer. and 2. a loanshark. cause i always seems to have a problem of being to softhearted to lend and too softhearted to demand for it back. and for now at least, after all e bad expriences i had..i have decided not to lend anyone money. try looking for y leong? heard he is pretty rich from rearing spiders on his head.;p


thank you lord for everything you have given me. for all your blessings and showerings of love. i thank you. and i pray that you will watch over us all through our days.






stay humble. stay true. to yourself. to God.

desmond scribbled at 3:01 AM.
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