Sunday, August 01, 2004

how vulnerable it is. one more week gone. time really flies. raz dad passed away. went to attend the funeral. was an eye opener for me seeing another religion's funeral. reflections slides in. how vulnerable life is. made me thankful for all that i have received. especially the love ones around me. whom i have taken them for granted. gave me a wake up call. that one day my love ones will be gone. and one day i will be gone too.

where to? is the question. i truly believe that i will make it there if i truly believe. what irony. but what about the rest of them? those whom i so truly love and treasure. will they be there? time to let them know that i really appreciate for all that theyve done for me. esp. my mum. and dad. and of course maggot. isnt it the case where the ones you love the most you tend to hurt them the most too? by your actions and words. maybe cause you know that they will forgive you the next minute. thus making us taking them for granted.

officially 7 more weeks to go. went down to idp finally. applied for two more unis. the guy told me that its better for me to apply during the exhibition. thinking of switching course. been always on my mind. but realising that if i were to do industrial design i will stay in aus for a longer period of time. sigh. to do what you like or to do what can feed you? sigh. one extra year if i were to do industrial design. which means one more year of fees to pay. i more year of rent to pay. and one more year of food to pay for. money money. who the heck invented them. why cant we all just give and take. nothing's free in this world as they say.

bought TOTO. dint strike. damn. shouldnt have put my hopes too high. ha. just bought for the fun of it since orange cloth told me to help him buy. thought if i strike then i will have no worries about fees and stuff. i could even bring mag over as well. ha. daydreaming a bit. but its good to daydream once in a while aint it.

another week starting. start of a new month. my time is near. broke. 2 digits left in bank. 9 more days to pay day. 9 more days to field camp too. what the heck. also good save up for the aussie trip. and jan if you are reading this i will be going over with mag either first or second week of oct. and if you are studying for exams no worries mate. will bring some chicken essence and disturb you at the same time. am sure having my presence there will improve your grades and concentration.=)

lord i thank you. for all that youve done. for all the people youve brought me in my life. all the love and all the joy. i thank you. from the bottom of my heart.








stay humble. stay true. to yourself. to God.





desmond scribbled at 11:36 PM.
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