Monday, July 05, 2004

off today. manage to get some good sleep. was hoping camp wouldnt call. and surprisingly they dint. ha. df did call regarding some hospital visit thing. which was fine with me. not feeling too good. think the going overseas thing is getting onto me. adding to the fact that i probably wouldnt be in the same campus as jan. sian. in some suburb. maybe some peace then i hope.

did some serious thinking. about my future. whether to switch course or not. since already going might as well do something i like. but realise what am doing is actually what i like. oh well. mags feeling real low today. sigh. how i wish i could make her feel better. or even bring her over. makes me real bad seeing her like that. trying my best to cheer her up. think me leaving again after her having to wait while am serving is really getting into her. too much of waiting. i can understand. sigh. what can i do. imagine her already waiting for like 2 years and now another 2 more if i were to go. she dont owe it to me. i owe it to her i guess. met her for lunch though. felt real good seeing her. ha. this pretty lady walking towards the car. ha. and shes mine. cant imagine when am gone. sigh. really really treasure her a lot. a lot. even though most of the time my actions doesnt show it. mags birthdays coming. gotta think of something. something good. something nice. 21st after all. gotta start planning.

flip thru my rmit stuff today. think this bundooru place is really oolu. cant find much info about it on the net. scarly its where all the aborigins stay. had katong laksa with parents today. been real long since i had a meal with them together. gotta treasure these times more. oh and jan is there. safely. with a parking summon. ha. called him. sound just like his at home. obviously hes not. suppose to open some account today. since am out on a weekday. but was too late. they closed. good life these people who works in the bank. imagine finishing work at 4pm. kaoz. how much better can it get. maybe studying banking is good. ha.

portugal lost. good. told you it will be a boring match. mag woke me up. luckily i went back to sleep. what lousy goal keeping skills. think my grand.. er ok think maybe david lee could have saved that. time to book in again. offcially less than 60 working days left. arghz. cant wait. back to the island. once more.

guide me Lord i pray. lead me. hold me. teach me. to where you want me to go. what you want me to do.







stay humble. stay true. to yourself. to God.
desmond scribbled at 10:30 PM.
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