Thursday, July 01, 2004

damn e parade. waste my time. slept for 2 hours to get to the ferry. took the first one in. and guess wad. the parade was postponed to 9am due to cat 1. and then guess wad. they din take attendance after all. sigh. but thinking back guess its e sense of responsibility. cant put my mind at ease if i were not to go back. took the ten hundred fast craft out. amazingly. got home after an hour.

fell straight to the bed. zonked. slept all the way till around five. ha. but wads a sleep without disturbance phone calls from company. never once they wouldnt call me. amazing aint it. first call from tay saying the that his not my acsm liao. hmm. but he din say much as was busy. then william telling me that major changes in the specialists structure. was pretty disturbed at first. but then again. come what may. i told myself.
three more mths.

dad woke me up. asking me why i take off and just slept the whole day at home. wanted to tell him it was to reward msyself and to catch up on my lost sleeps. ha. but too tired to. just went straight back under my quilt. been long since i have a uninterupted sleep. today included. sigh. one of this day when am clearing my leave all am gonna do is off my phone plug out my phone line and just sleep. in peace. and ya lock my doors so that no one can come in and disturb.

mags not feeling well. cough. and pain around the stomach. too bad am not a doc. told her to see doc. and drink plenty. shes been sick quite frequently recently. wonder if shes ok. took mcs quite a lot. one of the reasons why she doesnt wanna go get mc. could understand too. if not ppl will think that shes malingering. hope she get well soon. din get to meet up with her as shes got training. yawnz.

mums home. same questions all mother ask. have u eaten? ha. got me a plate of mango. shiok. df msg. another hp lost. wad the heck. again. in two weeks. two phone lost. william called asking about it. and telling me the situation. how interesting. can be private investigator liao. ha. hope to get the culprit. bloody idiot. how can one actually bring himself to take what that does not belong to him. imagine that happening on yourself. guess he din think of that. if not he probably wont steal. sigh. gonna charge that bugger if we were to ever get hold of him.

gonna get back to the island later. start of a new month. woohoo. time flies. still remember i was the new bird officer. now. 90 more days. to clearing. kinda fast. but then again aint everyone looking foward to it. hope to hand over to william properly. and pass down whatever i know. somehow afraid to tell him to do things. afraid later ppl might see it as am shrinking from my responsibilities. but this is the only batch. i have left. ah but who cares what other thinks as long as my heart is clear. big task at hand for him. with oc gone and a new csm coming. but believe his able to do it.

broke. hmmm. everytime. ha. nothing new anyway. i guess. same for every month. really wonder where all my money goes to. everytime i go to the atm the amount suddenly seems to dip a lot. farnee. maybe the system is spoiled. gotta check one day. blame everything but yourself. isnt this the kind of mentality people have nowadaes. not have the guts to admit its our own fault. myself included. 3 more days to jan flying. counting down for him. no news of ntu yet. each time i open the letter box with hope. each time it doesnt come. darn. but i still believe. in Him. better go spend sometime with mum.





stay humble. stay true. to yourself. to God.

desmond scribbled at 9:04 PM.
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